For(n)ever

1 week <3

Hot shower, coffee, bed socks, blankets, pj’s, hair down and on the phone to someone amazing. Sounds good!

I’ve never felt so alive, like I feel right now in this moment.

Had such a stressful day today. Broke down when I got home. So good to have someone to listen to me. <3

Ever left your parents thinking you’ll never see them again? I have.

Ever been hours away from dying? I have.

Ever felt so lucky to be alive? I do.

You’re a part of my life I have to let go….. I just don’t think I’m ready to yet. It’s so hard to say goodbye to a friendship of 10 years. But it’s even harder holding on when there’s nothing left to hold on to.

I’m never happy anymore. I just hate everything at the moment. I hate school, I hate work, and I hate my family. I miss my friends. Most of all I miss Blake. Last week was the worst week of my life and I can just tell it’s not going to get better anytime soon.

Scream, until your heart’s content.

I’d rather be frigit than make a decision that I know I’ll regret. No matter what you have to say.

Because at the end of the day our parents were right. Guys only want one thing, and if they don’t get it then you’re nothing to them. I thought you were different. I thought you cared. A split second can change that though as I found out today. Now I don’t know what to do.